När jag blir stor...
Ja gud ja, va fan ska man göra med sitt liv egentligen?
Jag vet att ja kommer vara mammaledig ett bra tag till framöver, men va händer efter de då?
Ska man hitta ett jobb? Plugga?
Ja du..
Är något kluven angående de just nu känner jag, även fast de ligger ganska avlägest :P
Har haft lite funderingar på att sätta mig i skolbänken igen faktis.
Vill utbilda mig till något, verkligen bli nått, få en titel så att säga :)
Men då kommer ju det stora dilemmat... Vad ska man bli?
Har ju haft ganska många fudneringar på utbildningar som ja skulle kunna tänka mig då innan jag fick Iza.
Va ju inne på Djursjukvårdar spåret innan jag for till England och läste lite ämen på komvux som jag behöver lägga till för att kunna söka. Men ja vet inte längre, är väl inte riktigt sugen på att läsa till alla de dära ämnena jag behöver för de, Fysik A+B, Kemi A+B, Biologi A+B och Matte C.
Baaah känndes fan t o m jobbigt att bara skriva ner dom o se dem framför sig :P
Mjaa.. Djursjukvårdare hamnar nog lite på is tror jag :P
Aja får ta mig en kik på de där tror ja!
You!
I open my eyes
I try to see but I'm blinded by the white light
I can't remember how
I can't remember why
I'm lyin' here tonight
And I can't stand the pain I And I can't make it go away
No I can't stand the pain
How could this happen to me?
I've made my mistakes
got nowhere to run
the night goes on
as I'm fadin' away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me?
Everybody's screamin'
I try to make a sound but no one hears me
I'm slippin' off the edge
I'm hangin' by a thread
I wanna start this over again
So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered
And I can't explain what happened
And I can't erase the things that I've done
No I can't
How could this happen to me?
I've made my mistakes
got nowhere to run
the night goes on
As I'm fadin' away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me?
Numb
Don't think there really is words to describe how I feel right now.
Empty is prob the closest you can get...
I don't feel happy nor do I feel sad, I just feel Numb!
I just cant understand how you can call me false?!
If some one of us is false surely that must be you..
You are the one that havent been Honest
You are the one who's put up an facade, pretending to still be my friend even though you apparently hate the guts out of me.
Maybe I was naive to belive that you would still be standing by my side through all thats happened.
And I don't know how many times I have to say this, It STILL takes two to tango.
What I did a year ago was cruel and heartless, I know that!
But I never meant to hurt anyone, that was never my intention.
I mad a bad decision and ran away, but at the time that was all I knew, I honestly thought that would solve everything!
I know better now but I'm not more than human, I DO make misstakes, even Big ones!
And if you do hate me as much as you have said, why do you still stick around?
I'm not forcing you to be my friend, I rater see you as an enemie than a False friend!
And that goes for all of you. I know this person isnt the only one to think of me as less worth than the dirt under your shoes...
But please for both our sakes, just say something, I rater you tell it to my face so I know!
Cus as it is now, I'm still sitting here waiting for you to call, write or what ever, cus I miss you, but what good does it do me missing someone that doesnt want me as their friend? Or you beeing "friends" with someone you really dislike?
Its just a loose loose situation!
So please just make this easy, so we can move on.
Cus I'm soo sick and tired of this Witch Hunt!
